Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Preparing to Go Back to Work

Maternity leave is ending. It's a pretty crushing realization. No matter how much you tell yourself that you're doing the right thing for your family, when your baby cries, you think "how can I leave her?"

We're lucky enough that my husband works a project based job from home. That means he's able to stay with our little one while I'm at work. It's incredibly comforting but increases the feelings that I'll be missing out on some things everything.

So that means I'm preparing to go back to work tomorrow.

That means making sure my pump is in working order, all the parts and bottles are clean and I have that process down.

It also means making sure I have enough milk pumped for my husband and baby girl to get them through the first day.

I cleaned the house yesterday while she was napping so that's all set.

The next thing on the list is lunch for me and making sure we have everything we need to dinner for the next few nights. It's also means snacks and smoothies for work.

The weirdest thing is going to be my wardrobe. Since last fall I've been limited to maternity wear and then I've been on leave so I've been living in athletic gear. What do I wear to work? Is the office cold or warm?

That's all the easy stuff.

But the biggest thing I'm trying to prepare for is leaving my baby girl. I won't lie, I've already had a couple of breakdowns. I feel another one coming on as I write this now.

I'll try the take it one day at a time philosophy, not one of my strong suits. I know everyone will get through it but it doesn't make it any easier. It's time to be a strong mom and wife.

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